Hearts United Women's Ministry

At one point in my life I found myself in deep depression. So God said to me one day, as He was putting a plan in my mind for a beautiful garden, “Lisa I want you to make this beautiful garden I have placed in your mind.  And then come there to meet with Me every morning.  I will be there waiting for you.”

So I drew the garden pictured in my mind and colored it.  Then came the days of making it.  I would think about meeting Him there as I labored with exciting expectation.  Little did I know He was there while I was making it.  The final touches were made and I could hardly wait for the next morning.

The next morning came and I went out with two cups of coffee in hand.  One for Him and one for me.  And right there He was waiting for me just like He promised.  I talked and talked just like I would with a friend.  I so enjoyed Him and He, me.

I did this every morning with that same expectation; and every morning He was there.  But soon the morning came that I stumbled in with depression hanging over me.  Morning after morning it came with me until I became so discouraged that I no longer wanted to come.  I cried out to Him and said, “Lord, I have nothing good to bring You; no sweet conversation, no smile, only my sadness.” And He said to me, “Come on My Child.   You never had to bring any of that. You don’t have to say one good word. Just come as you are and let Me hold you.”

So I did continue to come and He would just hold me during those times of sadness in my heart.  He would listen when I came with many things to say and He would tell me His secrets when I would quiet down.  And to this day, I no longer live in that place with the garden He instructed me to make, but we still meet every morning and I still battle depression.  But now I have learned where to run and hide… right in my Father’s arms in another garden… one not built by hands.  It is the secret garden in my heart.  That one I gladly let Him tend.